Crash -1 month

So if you ever feel like being parent of the year there is one thing you must do as a first time parent. (Please note the previous statement is dripping with sarcasm. You'll understand with the next sentence.)
Get in a car accident 1 month to the day of your child's birth.
Yup, I did it. Amazing timing. Not to mention that it totally made me feel like an Awesome parent (again sarcasm).

Fielding and I had just gotten our hair cut at my sister's house and were heading home in separate vehicles. Fielding in his car and I in mine with Serenity. Drove up the road to get on the freeway. 6 teenagers on the right hand side of the car avoided. Vehicle in front of me turns right onto the freeway. I continue through the light. Look to my left and see a car heading towards my vehicle. Naw, that car is turning into the lane next to me like it's supposed to....Nope. Thunk! (It wasn't a really hard hit.) I pull over immediately following the accident and wait for a second to breath (and not freak out). I get out of my car, check Serenity. She was okay. She slept through it. I then went to check the other driver since they hadn't gotten out of their vehicle yet. She was on the phone talking to her husband trying to figure out what she needed to do. I told her to call dispatch. She called 911 and we waited for the cops to show up.
                      and waited

Fielding called me twice while we waited. Luckily, Mandi talked to me about a few random things so I didn't freak out and start crying. Let's face it, that wouldn't have helped anyone.
                                                            and waited.
In all we waited about 30 minutes. (Thank goodness no one was hurt.) The officer finally showed up on the scene and talked with both myself and the other driver. She said I ran a red light. I said I didn't and that she turned into my lane after I was through the intersection.

So we filled out our statements and after she had left (both cars were drivable) he finally asked me if Serenity was okay. I said she seemed okay and wasn't lethargic.

I then went on to my mom's because she'd called about Serenity's blessing dress. Once I got there, I called the oncall pediatrician to find out if I needed or should do anything. He called back and recommended I take her to the Instacare. I took her to the Instacare and they didn't feel comfortable assessing her and didn't have the equipment to do so. They referred me to the ER. So that is where I went. I had my poor month old baby sitting in her car seat for over 3 hours before a doctor was able to really take a look at her.
  While waiting, there was a guy who had been hit in the face by a stray baseball. It hit him right below the eye socket and gave his some fractures. Not to mention a crazy bad headache. About that time my daughter started crying because she was hungry. -Poor guy. He and his wife were exited when I brought Serenity out to say hi to them though. He said her crying was okay. Their boy (when he was a baby) had colic for several months.
The doctor finally showed up and I felt worse for him than for my long wait. He had a cast/boot on his foot and was on crutches. Did I mention that he was somehow holding onto a clipboard and maneuvering doors? He checked her out and said that she looked good and that we just needed to watch her for the next couple of days to see if her demeanor changed (overly fussy or lethargic).
I think I was more worried about her sleeping that night than when I first brought her home from the hospital.
At least nothing horrendous happened and she seems to be doing all right. Guess it just means I can tease her when she gets older. Some people get dropped on their heads and some people have car accidents.

These are her hungry faces.

Such a happy baby. Not overly grouchy.

Tired little piggy.

I'm starting to think she was just a hungry baby.

She liked being bundled up tight.

First Easter Party with the Cates/Storrs/Roe/Harding family

Taking a pic to show a cousin

And then she made this face for about 2 second. What happened?

Sleeping baby

waking baby

Tired baby

Happy baby again.

plotting baby?

bored baby

SO EXCITED baby.

Day by Day -0 month

Can I tell you how much easier it was to write this post than any of the other ones I've ever written? Okay, mostly it's due to the fact that this post has about a million more pictures than most of my other posts.

hmmmm...I'm trying to think what else should be included in this post. Most of the time people tell you about what the baby could do at this stage, but I'd like to think that was pretty obvious. She was great at sleeping, dirty diapers, and eating. That is pretty much what each and every day consisted of.

Now, I on the other hand learned some things.

1. When your milk comes in (typically a few days after birth) it feels like a brick in a purse. -(Hopefully women get that. I'm not going to explain further on my bad analogy.)
2. Sleep deprevation is HORRIBLE. Serentiy slept about 4 hours each break, but that included 1 hour of eating. So by the time I finally got to sleep I had about 3 hours before she'd wake up wanting to eat again. Oy!
3. It's tough to adjust to being a mom/parent and still do all of the other stuff you once did (or at least it has been for me). When your baby is asleep you should either be sleeping too or get stuff done you're worried about. Otherwise by the time you get to either option A or B your baby will be back awake needing your attention.
4. Baby clothes shopping is an emotional thing for girls. Not so much for guys. It made me FEEL good when I found clothes for her (at a price I was willing to pay). Logically it didn't make sense to Fielding. That baby was only going to wear those clothes once.
   -And yes, that is true too. It's not worth getting too many baby clothes because they will outgrow them pretty quickly. Better to invest in clothes they'll wear for a longer timeframe. And yes, I've found some cute ones and inherited others. =)
5. Babies can get their ears pierced at 2 months. It's pretty expensive though. $50 easily. I waited until this month to get them pierced.
   Whether people think it's right or wrong -Yes, Serenity cried. (I have it on video.) She was done crying though by the time I had her buckled into her carseat. Unlike the toddler who'd gone before and was still crying as they left the mall. Just saying.

Day 1 in the Hospital. Her cheeks and chin were so rosy because of how sensative her skin was. 

Grandma & Grandpa Roe came to visit.

Grandma Pratt came to visit too, but Granpa was sick so he waited in the car.

The pediatrician was impressed by how white she was. No jaundice.

She kept her hands close to her mouth, but wasn't interested in chewing on her hands.

Day 1 -Dad's Test is over.

Someone told him babies 'learned' how to yawn from others yawning in front of them.

He'd banned everyone from yawning in front of her.

Apparently it's naturally known.

Oh, look she's just like her daddy (though she looks like me).

She had this cute little hat with ears. Unfortunately I didn't have a flash on my phone.

  

She was good at sleeping.

I don't know who didn't laugh at how big she could open her mouth.

It was pretty impressive and frightening. She was like a little vampire.

 This is the first day Mommy and Serenity were on there own.

Needless to say there was a whole lot of sitting around. Not because there wasn't stuff to do, but more so because I was afraid to leave her alone. She might fall or wakeup or cry.

She obviously was just fine. Mom was just being paranoid.

 Lunch out with Joan. Serenity was great through lunch, the tour of her old employees, but when she woke up...She was hungry and she let me know it.

Look at that brow.

See look...perfectly content when she wasn't hungry.

Pictures were a different matter.

She didn't want to lay down. She wanted to look at stuff.

 So we propped her up and bam! Perfect pic.

First St. Patrick's Day

-For Kateka. She obviously needed to work her angles better.

 Cute enough for Kelly Price to snap a few shots.

Pic by Kelly Price

Such a cute little bug.



Birth and Delivery (Part III)

Okay, so I'm obviously a horrible, horrible blogger. On the plus side, I haven't failed as a parent (yet).

So where was I...Oh, yeah.

From the beginning and even after I got the the hospital, I was 'planning' on a natural birth. Not because I actually thought it was better or a greater experience, but because when it came to weighing my fear of needles against an unknown amount of pain. Needles lose. (Please note that just because I was 'planning' a natural birth meant in no way that I believed I would make it through with one. I figured one of two things would happen. A) I'd be so far along I'd have no choice but to go about it naturally. B) I'd give in to the epidural.)

Anyhow, I made it for quite some time (9cm, not that you care, but maybe) until the red patterns I initially waded through (I drew swirls in my mind or went through Kung Fu forms.) became a giant mass of red that swallowed me whole. I think the last straw for Fielding was when I climbed on the bed and he thought I was going to fall off. It was at that point in time that he broached me getting the epidural. And since I really wasn't inclined to giving birth naturally and the reality of the pain for now front and center, what was a little (big) needle in the long run?

The anesthesiologist came in and yes, spewed all of the legal/medical ramifications he was required to and asked me to sign the medical waiver. WHAT!?! That is really something I figured only happened in movies, but apparently it happens in real life too. Well...what do you know another contraction so I couldn't sign. I couldn't even imagine what my signature would look like on that piece of paper. So through the contraction I gave him (the doctor) permission to have Fielding sign for the epidural. From there (and let's face it from the beginning), the doctor was extremely efficient and got right to work.

He asked me to move to the edge of the bed. Which is tricky when you're big and round and twice as tricky when you are in the midst of labor. So He took matters into his own hands, figuratively and literally. He told me he was going to give me a giant hug and that is was okay because my husband was there. (I remember that because it made me laugh and still does.) He pulled me to the edge of the bed, cleaned my back, stuck a sticky strip on my back, and stuck the needle in. I'm sure that if I'd actually seen any of it it would have freaked the bejeebbers out of me, but I didn't so it was all good. Some people say it's blissful, but it was honestly one of the oddest sensations of my life. It wasn't that it was horrible, but it was just so unexplainably bizarre as to feel unpleasant. Bam! Done. I don't think I was yet in a place to actually pay any attention to what he was saying when he left.

In came the L&D nurse to check my progress and go over how the epidural works. A) The nurse was not very courteous in my opinion and it hurt when she checked me. I just wanted her to leave the room. I did learn one really interesting fact though when she went over how an epidural works. It's gravity based. That means if your right side hurts you should roll more to your right. If it is numb to far up sit up more. Does that make sense? Because of that knowledge, I knew how to move to get the most out of the epidural.

She came in about five or ten minutes later to check me again (since she'd hurt me the first time). 9cm and she said she'd call the doc for me to start pushing. I don't know how much time went by until my doc stopped in to check on my progress. (Time really has no relevance in the delivery room. I don't know that your mind would even know how to pay attention to it.) He had me push some and then left to check on other patients. I continued to push with the L&D nurse and Fielding. Deep breath, focus, push 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10. This happened with every contraction (that you can't feel). You figure out a way to tell when you're having one. For me, I figured out that I could tell when my stomach was 'flexing' (contracting). I did that was a few times and she paged the doctor again. It was either during this time or when my doc was there that my thigh started to cramp up. So I lifted my leg to stretch it out and almost kicked Fielding in the head. (He was standing near my head. I remember the doc/nurse were pretty impressed that I could do that with the epidural.

The doc broke down the bed. Yes the lower part you'd been laying on comes completely off so they can efficiently deliver the baby and deal with all of the rest.

After that I gave birth. Okay, so it was more dramatic than that, but far less than what I would have expected. Not emotionally, but mostly different than what I had expected from everything I'd read.

THIS IS WHERE IT GETS DETAILED SO IF YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW STOP!

I read that even with an epidural you'd feel 'pressure' when the baby was crowning. Nope. Instead it was more like you could feel there was something there. ie if you held an egg in your hand. It's not pushing against you and you're not pushing against it. You can just feel it there. And you can definitely (or at least I could) feel when the doctor is assisting in creating space for the baby to get through. (Again not pain, just sensation.) I pushed a couple more time (or at least that's how I remember it) and she slid right out. I have no idea how all of that worked, but she cried for the first time and it just hits you. You just brought a child into the world. (I think I started to shake again after that, like after my water broke.)

The nurses then usher the spouse over to the baby so they don't have to see all of the cleanup. You pass the placenta which is just oozy and stitch you up if necessary. I mean let's face it. That part in and of itself probably made it worth it to have the epidural. I remember my doc taking care of everything and Fielding calling out that she was actually a cute baby. Not at all weird like some babies. (Again, I'm sure the nurses thought we were an odd couple.)

And since it's now been 4.5 months since I gave birth to her, I can't quite remember how the rest of it went. She stayed with me for a while and then went to the nursery while I rested and they got a room ready. I remember the nurse coming in with a wheelchair into the room and asking me if I would be okay getting into the chair or if I needed help. I told her I could walk to the room which surprised her.

From there it was all just history or more posts for the future. I mean it's not like she's really going anywhere and I'm sure there will certainly be more stories to tell.

Checking in the Hospital (Part II)

Once again I should be sleeping, but there's no time like the present and it has already been far too long since the first post. So...

Mandi, being brilliant, had already called ahead to the hospital to find out what doc was on call and to ask a few other questions that I can't remember now. Anyhow, I was in luck because my doc was on call and thus already at the hospital.

So when we arrived at the hospital the only really weird stuff I had to endure was standing up to yet another gush of water. (Yes, amniotic fluid continues to be created and thus leak whenever you move. Once again making you feel like you've wet yourself in public.) Anyhow, since I'd followed all of the rules and preregistered we didn't have to worry about too much paperwork and quickly checked into L&D (labor and delivery).

I named three people on my pass list. (I was a no info patient which was different than I had expected or how it was explained. Next time I'm going under an alias.) I wasn't allowed to change those names while I was in the hospital.

And after that I went back for observation. Observation really isn't that exciting of a place. Especially when you're not having any contractions (or any that you're really aware of). I declined the checks and blood work until I'd spoken with my doctor. So they proceeded to hook me up to two separate contraction monitors  and asked me some questions (which I no longer remember either). Fielding showed up about that time and I remember wondering if he was okay or if he was freaking out in his head. I also think the nurse had to think we were a bit crazy because of just how honestly we answered the questions. I swear there were a few contractions that occurred, but every time one was about to hit I ended up heading to the restroom. Oh, and they confirmed I was leaking amniotic fluid too.

Oddly enough we sat in observation for an hour when my doc finally showed up. (That is totally normal. They want to figure out if you really need to be admitted or not. He told me that the monitors hadn't registered any contractions and then checked my progress. No more progress than my appointment a week prior. So he advised me start pitocen and an epidural. Yeah...no. (I'm pretty sure this was the moment my doc wanted to tell me I was being difficult.)

I had told people I was going to opt for a natural delivery. Not because I thought it was a wonderful thing or anything like that. No. I'm terrified of needles and the thought of a needle in my back freaked me out. And yes, I also told people I thought it was STUPID of me to try natural when fabulous drugs were readily available. NOT because I think people who chose a natural birth are stupid, but more so because second to needles, I avoid pain as much as humanly possible.

Anyhow, he being a great doctor because I'm a slightly crazy patient pushed me to make some decisions. He told me that 80% of women who's water breaks don't start contractions on their own and have to be induced. He also told me how chances of infection increase the longer you wait too. So I had some decisions to make. I decided no pitocen and that I'd just wait it out a couple of hours to see how things went. I'm pretty sure I told him my uterus would win. After all, I'd beaten the odds thus far. -No morning sickness, no cravings, no issues at all. Just grew a healthy baby right on target. (God must know me pretty well.)

So I went back to a room and began the wait. Mandi, being brilliant again, knew my sister was still in the hospital. (Yes, the exact same hospital. She had delivered her son the day before.) She went and found her and had her come down to where I was to talk to me about what I needed to do. (Let's not hide it. It was to talk me INTO what I should be doing ie an IV at the very least.)

My sister had just gotten there when the nurse came in with a phlebotomist to draw some blood. -Please see part where I say I do not like needles. The nurse not knowing this tried to explain to me the why behind the draw. Hello, I do NOT care about the WHY. At this point in time I just want FIVE minutes to figure out what I want to do or figure out a way to deal with it. After some very short serious conversation, I decided to go with the IV. So the floor nurse (who oddly enough Kelli and I both knew from Middle School) came in to give me the IV. She was really efficient about it and walked me through what she was going to do to help me deal with it all. Yes, I cried and it was terrible (for me). I remember her telling me she was really proud of me and I told her that unfortunately I didn't care if she was proud of me or not. It didn't help. (Yeah, I know. Apparently I'm a pretty big jerk when I go to the hospital.) Kelli stuck around for a few minutes later and then headed back up to her room.

From there I honestly don't remember a whole lot. Contractions started going at some point in time and with EVERY SINGLE one of them I felt like I had to go to the restroom. So I'd get off the bed and wander to the bathroom. Cable/monitors in tow, though not hooked up then head back to the bed after. I don't know if every L&D room is like this, but I swear it was like a mini trek and with each contraction it just seemed so tedious. Needless to say contractions had started and they were going along just fine.

And since I've written a mini novel, rocked my child to sleep and need some sleep of my own, I'll have to write another part to this story. Who thought I'd have so much to say about it all? But at least you can think about the terrible things you can say to a doc the next time you go to the hospital. =)


TO BE CONTINUED....

How it all went down (Part I)

Okay, so I should probably be going to bed right now, but I'm tired of trying to figure out exactly when I'm going to write this all down. There is no convenient time anymore. Just now. (And now I need to figure out exactly where to start. The beginning? Which beginning? The day? The 'Event' where...hmm...)

Mandi called me a couple of hours before I was supposed to be done with work and asked me if I felt up to babysitting for her that night for a couple of hours. 'Yeah, why wouldn't I? I feel fine', was my reply. (And yes, I think I vaguely remember her telling me that she always ending up delivering on the day she felt 'fine'. But you'll have to ask her for her stories if you want those.)

Anyhow, I left work about 5p and headed over to her house. Got stuck in traffic and called her to see if she could pick me up some dinner from Chick-Fil-A. (I wasn't craving it, but it does taste pretty good. And I really like their lemonade so Mandi was nice enough to get me a large. =) ) I got there no issues and Mandi headed out the door to fill in for Bunko.

Ellie, Annie, and I were chilling quietly watching one of Ellie's favorite shows (Phineas & Ferb or Mickey Mouse Club). No issues. I don't think I'd been there more than an hour or so when Mandi's husband got home from his school class and Annie decided she was hungry.

Jason got her bottle ready and started to feed her. And since I didn't need to go home, we sat around talking about life. (Fielding was hanging out with Daniel and had just left to drive  him back to his apartment in Provo.) I figured it was no big deal. We could talk until Mandi got home, I'd leave and make it home about the same time Fielding would be getting home. So Jason and I sat around chatting while he fed Annie and honestly I can't remember if Annie spit up or if she was just making a mess eating.

Anyhow, (sorry, you might see that word a couple times in this.) Jason asked me to grab a towel from under the sink. Okay...do, do, do (That's me walking to the sink.) I walked over to the sink. Opened the cupboard underneath and bent over to get a towel and WET MYSELF. I mean, I had had a LARGE lemonade to drink and hadn't gotten the chance to use the restroom yet since Mandi left. Utterly embarrassing.

Yes, my thoughts at this point in time were how can I play this off, get to a restroom, figure something out, and get out of there post haste. I thought it would be okay initially and maybe I could hide it, but as I started to stand up straighter the more I seemed to be leaking. WHAT!?!? Embarrassing. I've NEVER lost control of my bladder like this before and there seems to be no stopping it either. [Facepalm] This is either you really losing it or there just might be a logical explanation for this...YOUR WATER JUST BROKE!Yup...pretty sure that's what just happened what do I do now? Play it cool. (Yes, most of that happened in my head in under 10 seconds.)

So I calmly walked towards Jason handed him the towel and let him know I was going to use the restroom because I was pretty sure my water just broke. I think he may have been in a little bit of shock and asked 'nuh uh.' Yup. I'll be back. So I went upstairs really emptied my bladder and asked myself some questions. 1-doesn't smell like urine 2-can't seem to control it. Holy crap! I really think my water broke. What should I do now?

SIDENOTE: Amniotic fluid smells kind of sweet unlike urine. Secondly, most women go into labor first instead of having their water break. When it does break 
most people say it doesn't gush. I felt like it gushed. It was insane!

So I headed back downstairs, confirmed once again that my water had broken and picked up the phone to call Fielding to see where he was at on the road.  
"ring, ring...
ME: Hey, where you at? Oh, you're still down there? Can you pick me up from Mandi's on your way back?
HIM: Why? What's wrong with your car?
ME: Nothing. Just wondering if you can pick me up. (I didn't want him to freak out because of his PTSD or even just because he was going to need to drive through the crazy Provo construction.)
HIM: Okay, but I still don't get why you can't drive your car.

ME:  Well,...I'm pregnant and my water just broke. (While the statement was blunt, I was perfectly calm about it.)
HIM:  What!?! I've gotta go. I've gotta go...Click.
(I'm pretty sure he finished saying goodbye to Daniel pretty quick and started heading for Mandi's.

After all of this, Jason was nice enough to offer to pack the kids up and drive me to the hospital. I told him no and that I was fine. (Which I was. At that point in time, I wasn't having any contractions and I was only shaking a little bit from the shock of it all. And outside of feeling like a very soggy two year old, I felt fine.)

Next call, Mandi.+
"ring, ring...
ME: Hey, where you at? Oh, you're still down there? Can you pick me up from Mandi's on your way back?
HER: In my car. Why?
ME: Oh, I was just wondering when you'd be home.

HIM: I'm just heading into the neighborhood. Why?
ME:  Well,...I'm pregnant and my water just broke. (It worked the first time. It was totally worth a repeat.)


Honestly I don't really remember all of the stuff that happened after that. So I'm going to make up my own version that I'm sure has a modicum of truth to it somewhere (either that and it's all lies my brain made up to make me feel better).

I'm pretty sure Mandi offered to drive me to the hospital or have Jason drive me. Both of which I said no too. It was nice, but I figured I still felt alright and hadn't had any contractions so it was no big deal.

She got back to the house and asked me how I was doing and I told her I was fine. She then asked me where Fielding was and I told her he was driving up from Provo and that he'd be there in a little bit. She then encouraged me to head to the hospital because she didn't want me having my baby on the living room floor. I said I'm sure I'll be fine and asked Ellie if she'd clean up the front room for me. She told me no. Mandi asked me if I wanted to sit down. (I'd been standing the whole time.) I told her no. I then told Ellie that I totally knew how she felt standing there with VERY soggy feeling underwear. After a little bit longer, Mandi made an executive decision. (Just one reason we're best friends.) She called Fielding to tell him we'd meet him at the hospital. Mandi was worried about my shaking and I'm sure a host of other things she didn't want to tell me. So we packed up two towels for me to sit on (No way was I going to ruin her new car.) and headed out.

She started down her normal route she took to get to work every day. Crap! I'm not hungry right now, but I want to get something to eat before getting to the hospital. (Some labor can take a LONG time and you can't eat anything once you get into the hospital.) So Mandi asked me what I wanted. I figured some kind of juice would be a good option. Maybe I could sneak it while the nurse wasn't in the room or something. We stopped at a gas station and I told her I wanted Troll Eggs too. (She was so nice to be so indulgent of the crazy person.) She got me a juice and then walked out with it without paying for it. (Don't worry, she told the cashier she'd be right back.) She wanted to know if I wanted the eggs or the worms. (See...she really did take care of my crazy self.) I told her the eggs and she went back in to the cashier and told him she had a prego lady in the car. He was really nice and asked when I was due. 'Oh, right now. We're actually heading to the hospital.' 'Oh, well good luck and congratulations.' (Again, I think something like this was said. I was in the car.) =)

After that, I was kind enough to let Mandi continue on to the hospital. (Still no contractions.) In fact, I felt more than okay, outside of feeling all soggy. We even just had normal conversation on the way to the hospital while I drank some of my juice. =)

TO BE CONTINUED.....-because I really need to go to bed and this really has turned out a bit longer than I had anticipated. Guess you'll have to wait for a part II. =)

A pic says it all

(At least for now this says it all.)

7 Year Itch

I'm itching to celebrate Fielding's and my seven year anniversary, but I doubt we'll actually get around to it. It was actually back in February on Super Bowl Sunday (and what an excellent day).
Fielding and I had talked about doing something extravagant, but being in my last month of pregnancy put a damper on any of those plans.

Instead we settled for some simple gifts (or they were supposed to be). Fielding got some books he wanted at B&N and I was going to settle for some delicious chocolate truffles. (Yum!) Fielding knew better though and decided to get me a few extras too. I got an orange bracelet and a new pair of AMAZING flip flops. (I'm still waiting to break them in, but I'm really excited to wear them when I do.)

I guess overall I didn't want this event to be glossed over by all of the madness that happened in February. I'm glad every day at least once that Fielding and I are together and that we've had seven years of adventure and love. I'm glad that he kisses me before he heads out the door to work. That he wants to give me a hug when I walk through the door at the end of the day. I love that we've been able to learn and grow closer over the last seven years regardless of what kind of madness we've faced. We've faced it together and become happier for it. I think most of all I'm grateful for our future together. We've started a new adventure together with our daughter and I know that we're in it together. I'm looking forward to more morning kisses, evening hugs, and SEVERAL sanity checks along the way.

Obviously I love him and think he's utterly perfect for me. Mwah! (That's directed at him, not the audience).